God says in several places in His Word that our romantic relationship we have with a spouse here on earth is meant to reflect or resemble God's love for us and His people ( His church body as a whole ). I have came to believe this, not only by reading the bible and believing it just because its in the bible and I'm told that if I'm a Christian I must believe it, but I believe what He has said in His Word because, so far, the way my love story has unfolded, it is resembling my relationship with Jesus. Let me explain....
For one thing, God did something highly unexpected. I wrote Nick off as "one of my mistakes" and never considered we would ever reconcile, but God. Another thing, God literally took dead ashes of our previous love, relationship and marriage circumstances, and somehow, I don't know how, God managed to bring so much beauty our of those ashes where dead things used to be. He brought them to life again. Only God has power of life over death!
A 3rd reason is : Nick has certain characteristics about him that remind me of characteristics of God. Those certain characteristics are ones I cherish and hold dear to me in regards to my personal preference of how I like to be loved in any kind of a relationship. They are ones that come naturally to God and Nick and make me feel so safe, secure, respected, loved, adored and cherished, like I can be myself and not afraid of freely being me in all capacities. God created all men & women differently and everyone has different love languages so my preferences of top values in a man might be very different from the next woman, but, for me, it just feels like Nick is the right fit. I hope that makes sense. Not in a way that I am desperate for this to workout and so I am over-highlighting certain values of his, no, more like Nick came with values that I didn't even know I needed and wanted until all this happened.
God also says in His word that we are to date with a goal of marriage in mind. And when we do marry, it is for life, no man can separate it. I wasn't so sure a love like that here on earth could possibly exist, or with me, but God....lol.... God is showing me more levels of Himself and what all He is capable of the longer I continue to focus on Him and the more I intentionally pursue a relationship with Him. The more I open myself to His teaching and His word, the more I chase after God's heart and get to know Him, the more and more I get blessed in ways I can't even imagine would happen.
Nick and I do not have a perfect relationship and I certainly am not trying to portray there is such a thing as that. However, there is a perfect God and HE....HE has a love that is pure and true and surreal and He weaved us in our mother's womb so He is the only one that knows us in and all throughout our entire being, and He is the one that gave all of us our unique life experiences that grew us in different ways to become who we are meant to be. That is why He must be the head of our lives and of all our relationships and/ or marriage. It's just how it is. It is how it must be. In my experience, you can take the time and learn it for yourself, but I am here to proclaim that none of my attempted relationships ever worked nor were any true or pure like the love I share with God and now Nick too. None of them. When I tried to go by my own relationships rules and thought I didn't need God, it all ended up simply pointing me right back to the fact that I indeed did need Him very much so. I blatantly turned my back on God for years and although I did succeed in finding relationships, they ended in me needing emotional heart surgery from the only one that can repair my heart=the maker of my heart. Doing things my way only got me in a deep world of pain that God had to come and rescue me from and He is the ONLY ONE that can or ever will fill that role.
Today, Nicholas and I got engaged. 💓🙏 (5/21/22)
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